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Hiya, I wasn't able to blog much due to my exams. But....now that my exams are OVER,so yeah I have time to blog and take many photos of myself. Kidding~ Probably, I have to make use of the time to find a part time job, get a new life, read more inspirational books to inspire me and to adjust my personality.

Swagger's very own designed shirt

Upon looking at my own designed shirt, it's the sense of achievement together with my passion makes me motivated and carry on with the stuff I love to do.

Not many knew that. Before I am in poly or junior college, I was about to enroll into NAFA or Lasalle's fashion communication. But situation changed, as my parents strongly objected my request and my pleading. 

I thought "oh well...I guess I don't really have the talent or the 'fate' to be a fashion editor or a fashion designer." And I really thinks that that maybe doing something I am good at, is way better than doing something I like but I have zero experience in it.

Upon coming across with so many youtube videos teaching how to design your own shirt, I always think they are really very talented and smart. And I might not be able to become someone like them and secretly hoping to be someone creative.

Who knows? One day, I decided to revamp my old clothes and the sense of achievement after revamping my clothes. THAT'S WAS SERIOUSLY AWESOME!!! Till now, I can't believe this is my second attempt in revamping my old clothes. 

My First Attempt

YAY!!! I have been learning how to revamp my old shirts since I'm not wearing it anymore.
This is my second time of revamping my old clothes! 

Achievement unlocked!! 
Without further ado, flaunting my two pieces of "new-old" shirts!!! 

BANANA YOU~

Hey! That's a lousy title for my post~ 

Oh well.... nothing much to update except for my whereabout and my unpredictable emotion. I had a hectic and tight schedule for the past few days, rushing reports and revising my excel ica. 

As such, you know>>>>

LACK OF SLEEP= CRANKY.

I wasn't that cranky, I was being high and friendly.


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Horights! I'm back to work= additional income for me! YAY~

Dreadful Thursday

As mentioned, I wasn't a great person neither have I been good to anyone. Hopefully after this semester, I will be a changed person and treating everyone nice. For now, I will try to fix things up and hopefully, have a chance to make up with those I had hurt unintentionally.

Holy Shit!!! I'm not ready for presentation!! I'm still deciding my formal wear. BooHoo~~~

Doubts on my personality

Guess it's just me who have to change my attitude before I criticize people. 
Indeed, it's class and school giving me craps. But shouldn't I make school fun by myself and stop ranting, letting classmates to read my previous post? All I just need is people's concern and acknowledgement. But I suppose no one would give a damn on me nor should I be concerned about having no one to turn to. 

Just a kiddy and reckless thought of mine to write the post and I had made myself embarrassed in front of everyone. 

Disappointment

It will be good if everyone share the same sentimental regarding making friends in poly. It's really tough to make friends and get along with one clique in poly. It's very different from JC life, whereby you get to mingle around with all jc people.

I suppose this is my first hurdle I have to cross over and get over it. I bet everyone will definitely say "Get a life, girl. You are no different from the rest. You just want to be part of the "fun" people. Get over it and stop ranting about how difficult to mingle around with your classmates. Just try to make one friend in class."

Trust me, dude. It's not easy to get over it, especially you are alone! Sitting alone in class, eating alone, studying alone and no one to talk to because they have their own "cliques", whereas you are the "outcast" in class. 

Yes, I admit that I am yearning for being the friendliest person(like I used to be in JC), mingling with everyone and being the centre of the attention. But I don't think there is any wrong with trying hard to fit in. But always, I was the one who are left out. 

Classmates always think that I am emotional, insane, talkative, noisy and sensitive. I appreciate the fact that everyone tried to show concern to me by texting me "Hi, are you okay?".

And dude or ladies, one concern text doesn't resolve any problem. You are just merely telling me to get a life and stop my emotional craps. No one is genuinely showing concern, you see. No one take time to understand and know me well enough to say that.

Yeah, I'm not afraid of telling anyone about my problem nor am I afraid of showing this post to everyone. Because I am that straightforward. Obviously no one like someone who are straightforward, they just "like" it when people being direct to them. 

Oh well, call me a secondary school kid, an immature old lady or a crazy woman. But shouldn't we be more frank with our feelings and share with everyone how we felt. I supposed the society has trained everyone to be self-centered and hide their own feelings coward.