Disappointment

It will be good if everyone share the same sentimental regarding making friends in poly. It's really tough to make friends and get along with one clique in poly. It's very different from JC life, whereby you get to mingle around with all jc people.

I suppose this is my first hurdle I have to cross over and get over it. I bet everyone will definitely say "Get a life, girl. You are no different from the rest. You just want to be part of the "fun" people. Get over it and stop ranting about how difficult to mingle around with your classmates. Just try to make one friend in class."

Trust me, dude. It's not easy to get over it, especially you are alone! Sitting alone in class, eating alone, studying alone and no one to talk to because they have their own "cliques", whereas you are the "outcast" in class. 

Yes, I admit that I am yearning for being the friendliest person(like I used to be in JC), mingling with everyone and being the centre of the attention. But I don't think there is any wrong with trying hard to fit in. But always, I was the one who are left out. 

Classmates always think that I am emotional, insane, talkative, noisy and sensitive. I appreciate the fact that everyone tried to show concern to me by texting me "Hi, are you okay?".

And dude or ladies, one concern text doesn't resolve any problem. You are just merely telling me to get a life and stop my emotional craps. No one is genuinely showing concern, you see. No one take time to understand and know me well enough to say that.

Yeah, I'm not afraid of telling anyone about my problem nor am I afraid of showing this post to everyone. Because I am that straightforward. Obviously no one like someone who are straightforward, they just "like" it when people being direct to them. 

Oh well, call me a secondary school kid, an immature old lady or a crazy woman. But shouldn't we be more frank with our feelings and share with everyone how we felt. I supposed the society has trained everyone to be self-centered and hide their own feelings coward.